i don't know

I don’t know how to fail.

I don’t know how you took that.

Let me rephrase that.

I don’t know how to process failure.

I don't know what to do when it occurs.

That combustible concoction within me stirs.

I don’t know how to deal with the disappointment.

I don’t know what to do with the voice saying “I told you so.”

That sinking sensation I can’t let go.

I don’t know how to push through that pain.

I don’t know why it lingers so long.

Drawn closer to doom, a Siren’s song.

I don’t know how to float.

I don’t know where that buoyancy goes.

Sinking feeling, the mind slows.

I don’t know how to swim

I don’t know where to find the surface.

So I avoid any waters that make me nervous.