I know I want everything to have meaning,
I know I want some things to not mean so much.
I know I want to be loved hard.
I know I want love not to be hard.
I know I want to be held.
I know I want to not be held too tight.
I know I want to fill the space around me.
I know I want to not always feel the space around me.
I know I want to be needed.
I know I want to not want that.
Twins exist in soft opposition
Unexplained except through eyes of Gemini.
I never believed in the Stars’ story about me,
But there’s so much I don’t know about how I work in the world.
I exist between dichotomy.
Between wanting to know everything,
And the things I don't want to know.
Between valuing growth,
And fearing change.
Between happiness in the moment,
And the months I spend planning for it.
Between disciplined time management,
And compulsive habits.
Between boredom
And predictability.
I know, I make no sense.
But also, rarely does humanity.
So I guess I am my most human
As my most senseless, confusing self.
And if I'm not actually alone in between,
Then I know, I'll be ok.
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